Hee Hee

I read the post I made about my jobs( thanks Josh), it made me chortal. Yeah I still think very fondly of my job with RBC and sometimes wish that I was back there answering the same question for the 60th time that day. It was the best employment I have had. Being self employeed has its good side and its down side. Good side is that I can do what I want, bad side is that not always is what I want to do the right thing to do. All and All I have no regreat about leaving CIBC when I did. Some times I think that mabey I should go back, or mabey I should work at a different bank ( 'cause I really was very good at my job, and that is something that I can hang my hat on....) but then I remember all the moments that I had panic attacks in the middle of the night, waking up thinking about mtg deals and the like. I DONT miss that in the least. I miss visiting with some of the clients and staff but just not enough. I do miss the regular, I can build a budget on this, pay cheque, but its comming.
I really do like that I can be a blessing to a family and take care of something for them that will let them have more time for each other. And I can do that and be that for MY family. I love them so much and its so great to have this time together. Kevin and I have not had this much married time together since the fall of 98 when we were both still in Unni. I love that I can spend my days with Micah and build into our relationship.
The way I look at it is that I have mabey 15 years at the most where I can make Micah a part of my life, after that She has to want me to be a part of her life. So if I invest in her, in my family, now as much as I can, then mabey, just mabey She will bless me with a life time of friendship. Oh how my heart hopes in the Lord for that!!!
Well I am going on and I had just come to the computer to check my email and now look I have spent the past 40 min romming the bowels of the internet and I have missed my bed time again. Grrrrr.