Here is my 'slice' of life

Hi
So what is life about? no realy what is MY life about and how do I live that, every day, every moment of that day? How do I follow my script for life not some one eles?
If only I could stop the world for just a week mabey I could think about that. Its seams as if I can never get to what matters (I'm not sure what that is any more either) in a day cause so much other stuff happens.
Here is my delema: Was what I set out to do, all my plans and hopes for the day, was that what mattered? And did I fail at the day (and ultimatly my life) cause I didn't get to any of it? OR is what actually happened what matters? Is that the stuff that my life should be made of?
Example:
Ah its Saturday morning and its beautiful. Today I want to finish a bit of laundry and clean the floor in the morning. Then I think it would be nice to fill the pool and make a drink and play outside with Micah. Enjoy life, enjoy the birds singing, feel the sun kiss my skin. Perhaps for supper we will bbq some hotdogs, pick up a move on the way home from icecream and just hang out with each other tonight. Thats a great plan. That sounds like a good day. A nice balance of 'nessecities' - the laundry and the floor and then the things that will make me look back on the day and smile.
Reality:
How did it get to be 11:00 already? I haven't got to any thing yet, I've been doing a dame soduko and now it's 11:00. Ok so the floor doesn't need to be done but these breakfast dishes do... Micah would you stop whinning. Why are you so cranky. You need a nap......yes you do. Ok lets have a little nap then we can do something this afternoon. Ok now she is down for her nap. I'll just do these dishes . ok there done, now finish folding the laundry... what was that?. Micah get back in bed!. I need to flip the laundry but I should fill up the pool first so that it can warm up just a bit. walk through the bed room, sit on the bed ( big mistake), Oh I need a nap too. So now its 1:00 and I'm rested and so is Micah, but I still need to get the laundry done. As I was changing the laundry I realized the cats have no food. Well I'll have to run to walmart for that. I gues while I'm there I could pick up a few other things. I should make a list.. no I'll just remember.
Micah get your shoes on we have to go to wal mart for cat food. Yes the cats need food. Why?.. beacuse there hungry. Yes there tummys hurt cause there hungry, now get your shoes on!
Home from wal mart and its now 3:00. Micah hits the pool. I finaly get the laundry done. Oh crap forgot to get a movie. well I guess well watch Nemo, again.
Should start the bbq. hummmm we have no buns, well thats ok, who needs buns!. No buns today Micah. I know you like buns but we dont have any. Yes, mommy forgot at the store.
Ok quite finger painting with the katchup, no its not a good thing to wipe it in your hair and on your cheeks, no not on you legs either. Ok in the bath with you. humm more dishes. Oh I realy want that drink now but I will wait till Michas in bed then I can have some quite timea nd realy enjoy it. Micah quit splashing!
Ahh ok, now She is in bed, we've watched a movie. I need to vaccumm to cause theres pop coren ion the carpet now. I should do the kitchen floor too, its so sticky. Micah waht do you want now?. We already read three stories. We already snugled for a bit, its time for sleep now. I'm going to bed, yes i am and so is swiper and Romeo. No dad isn't here, hes at workie. Yes he'll come home tomorrow. Ok good night sweet pea. I love you.
Forget the floor, forget the movie, forget the drink, I;m just going to bed.

And so there was no relaxing and there was no kiss from the sun, there is still a sticky floor and the laundry is clean but not put away. The bathroom is soggy and the table has catchup smeared all over it. the cats are feed but have no clean litter cause it forgot that too. I still haven't made my drink and just watched the world go by but now I'm far to pooped to do anything but flop in a heep in the bed.
Oh my book, mabey I could read for a bit...... no I just want sleep.
This is a slice of my life.
M.